Wake up, you dummy!

Malachi 3:10
Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. "Test me in this", says the Lord Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it."

So, yes, I'm the dummy. I go through my whole existence stangling myself, while trying to maintain the illusion of control. "Why can't we afford to pay our debt down sooner?" "Why are we alway struggling during the last week of the month?" "Why do we have to live in the beater house for the next 5 years?"

We finally gave in, and we tithed our budgeted amount this month. I think it's the first month we've actually given what we've pledged to God since Baxter started his new job. Isn't that horrible? God has proven to us again and again that he will provide for us, and we can't even give Him back what he is due. Anyway, He blessed us again. We didn't have the money in the bank when we tithed it, we didn't know where in the world it was going to come from, but we gave with joy. Here's the kicker. Later this week, Baxter's boss just comes up to him and just randomly gives him DOUBLE the amount we just tithed.. Amazing isn't it? But here's the part I'm ashamed of. This whole week, I've been thinking, "wow, what an amazing boss Baxter has, and what a great job Baxter must have been doing at work", not once until tonight did I even realized what happened. I should have been thinking "wow, what an amazing God I have, and how faithful He is to us!" It just hit me like a ton of bricks, and I am so renewed with faith, and ashamed of what I missed at the same time. It's kind of a weird place for me to be at this point.

But, bottom line, God is good, I apologized, He FORGIVES, and we move on.

Amen